A PARTY OF ONE

I wanted to write something a little bit “meta” about this whole song-writing experience, while also touching upon our A.I. overlords.

This really was just a test song at first, but then it became something quite infectious…

Now that I’m in my 50s, my idea of what I find attractive in men has broadened a lot. But for most of my life, I was just “bear”-obsessed (all my boyfriends were bears, and then I married one).

So this is definitely a song that reflects how I felt growing up and a good chunk of my adult life. My husbear thinks this will be a hit at various “Bear Events” — we’ll see about that… 🙈

I was looking for inspiration for a new song, and so I asked my husband what he thought the next song should be about.

“Pizza!”

Pizza, eh? Challenge accepted! 🙈
But I couldn’t just write a song about pizza and toppings and whatnot. I wanted to write about my favorite style of pizza, and — in a way — about my favorite place in the world: New York. I miss it so much…. and the pizza too.

So this song is my love letter to NYC, with references to folding slices with one hand, and the infamous “Pizza Rat”!

I still wake up with cold sweats, thinking about what’s happening in America right now. November 2016 was a nightmare come true, and November 2024 was the 10x times scarier sequel.

I had to address it somehow in a song. It’s really impossible to wrap your head around how something like this can happen, and so “Promises” seemed like an appropriate title. (Although “Oh Hi, I’m Stupid” also works).

The A.I. did some really weird stuff with this song, and some words have some really funny pronunciations. I tried to “fix” it, but it kept changing the song into something I didn’t like. So I kept it as is… warts and all…

I’m allergic to alcohol, and I’ve never done drugs. So of course, growing up and going to parties, other people insisted that it was absolutely impossible that I could have any fun. After all, how could I possibly enjoy myself if I wasn’t completely drunk, stoned out of my mind, or barely making any sense at all???

So yeah… I’ve had a lot of “parties of one” in my lifetime….

I know a LOT of polyamorous people in relationships with two (or more) people, and I promise this song is not about any of them!! 😅

Well… I guess it’s semi-based on someone I knew a long time ago, and it’s the absolute extreme version of this person — if he could live out his absolute dream scenario. (Because, as you know, I like to be over-the-top with my lyrics).

Hopefully all of the actual sane poly people that I know who don’t go to these extremes will find the humor here… 😅

Any time my husband and I are out somewhere, or watching something on TV, and we see something cute or stupid or silly — we immediately shout “YOU!”

Basically… everything is YOU. Yes, even that pile of poop making a frown. Isn’t that so romantic???

This was another husband-suggested topic for a song. Being a good kisser is mega-important. And that first kiss? “It should be pure bliss…”

Funny thing about this song is that I had a specific idea of how it should sound, and the SUNO app had other plans. It was like “Nah, this should be a relaxed, chill and a sexy-sounding song”. The app was absolutely right! It’s so much better this way…

Also, is that Poly Ollie making a cameo in this image? 😳

When I was 19, I fell off a cliff and broke my back — and I spent months in a rehabilitation center learning to walk again.

Then in July of 2023 I acquired the rare autoimmune syndrome Guillaine-Barré (completely unrelated to my previous injury), and suddenly within a week I was completely immobile from the neck down. Once again, I was back in a rehabilitation center learning to walk again (and this time my arms and hands were affected). As I write this, I’m still only about 90% recovered.

“Not Again” is my attempt at expressing my feelings during that time, and for the future…

So I understand a LOT of Spanish now, and can have basic conversations. But… am I as fluent as I should be, for someone who moved to Spain in the Summer of 2016? No, not at all. 🙈

This song makes me sound way worse than I am, but I’m totally ok at making fun of myself. I deserve it! 

I have some severe mental blocks that I need to overcome to eventually master this language. In the meantime, this song makes me chuckle…

On November 6, 2024, I decided to quit all social media for good. This was something I was planning to do for a while anyway, but my hospitalization and recovery made me stay on for a little while longer. But after the orange dictator was elected a 2nd time, I decided it was finally time to walk away…

And wow… I have never been happier or more at peace. I think social media and the apps were great in the beginning, but corporate greed has turned them into something truly awful. We’ve been engineered to become addicts to our phones, to a point where leaving them is way too scary a concept to even entertain. But I did it, and I’m thriving. I escaped the FOMO!

This song is also for all of my gay friends who are addicted to hookup apps. Way too many that I know spend every night wasting their time on them and letting it affect their mental health.

I wish their was a way we could all be re-programmed to beat these addictions!

Finally, after writing two dozen songs as “DJ Rojo” – the actual Rojo was getting kind of pissed, and was all “what about ME?”.

So here’s a song dedicated to Rojo and “his” amazing music.

You asked for it, bear!